Ahmedabad
25/06/2009
Its mid night…. 2.38. AM… tomorrow I am submitting my Thesis report……as part of the document one has to write acknowledgment….. willingly or unwillingly ,.. to acknowledge the people for their wanting or unwanting support.. in shaping or breaking your work….. so I too have had to .. no choice….
But I managed to cut my acknowledgment as short and mention deepest gratitude only to the people I felt… and in last I wanted to thank my brother.. Amir….he is elder to me…..
But then I realized that it was very small thing if I do it with a phara… so I need to write more.. but a page was small for it…. But I did…. In few lines.. I expressed my deepest gratitude to him… no.. for rarest of rare occasion I could be taken seriously…. It goes this way…
A roller coaster....... still going on......... .. many lows.... few ups........one thing that never changed......... who always stood by me.......got me back from..... rock bottom........ made this work....... possible in particular...... when after first semester i collapsed financially............................................... ............................... Dedicated to ............... AMIR....... my elder brother.........
But its just a gratitude. Which reader might forget or probably might even go unnoticed….
But it’s a gesture….
I need to go back few months back.. that’s November 2007.. the year I got into masters program of urban design… I was about to finish my first semester… and in middle of diwali vacation I had to call up my brother.. telling him that I am unable to arrange for the required finance that was through SBI education loan.. don’t trust on bank people.. sponsoring u r education.. its only for the people who already have ample of money and want to evade their taxes.. by asking for loan….
And I had left with.. last few thousands in my account… I had choice to borrow it from few people who would charge me interest or leave the course…
Second option was lucrative as I had read a lot about drop outs making big… but my brother wanted me to be a little above average or an ordinary man… so he stepped in to provide for my fees…and other expenses
With his limited income… I am sure if I would have been in his place I would have wanted him to make big in this world… at expense of his education…
Till date he is paying me for every luxury .. I have been used to live like an uncrowned king… with 5 rupee in pocket I can imagine of eating at best restaurant … that’s feat I have been doing for ages.. and manage to do it .. successfully till that eve....date…
Its last few days… and I have seen him .. paying for my education…luxury….. for all my branded cloths.. for all my expensive perfumes… he never complained of living out in limited resource and working hard to earn more… so he could sustain both of us..
Today the amount has mount to few lakhs… I have just one masters degree…. Of course which Is hardly recognized in world….with recession at its worst.. I don’t know when would I be able to repay my loan…..
If I call it a bet .. then my brother put on wrong one… in case I die… I would be unable to pay .. ( not even 1 rupee as my insurance….) no worth could be earned over my corpse … any way. But I would move out… in need to earn… to repay.. and in case if I survive.. it would be the best bet anyone would have made till date…..
Some day i would pay the money.. i will.. but the gesture which went him in providing me is unquantifiable.... no own would do it for any one...he did... Thanking him would demean it.. so let me leave it.....
